The ego still knocks on my head

Don't try. If you're good, people will noticed. If you're meant to be noticed, you will be noticed. No point trying. 

想起那一个夏天

It's night like this makes life looking real dull and still dull. Leading a really nasty life but I sucked it up and kept it safe with me because I'm ego like that. Also, I wanted to prove people wrong and made believe it's all me. Gahh.. I don't think there's a cure for introvert people. #facepalm

Life is always not easy, didn't want to say hard because it's a really strong word. Maybe someday I will have my lessons learn, but for now, I still am really much struggling to get thru the pain and the hardship. Guess it's really hard to find something you love when so many obstacles stood in front of you..And I don't think I'll understand life. Goodnight peeps

Effect

trying out the camera

If you could read me, it's the word 'sorrow'

the heart couldn't beat anymore

and it's sad because it was once a very lively heart.

there's this thing about giving up,

once you've let loose,

you don't even know why you're fighting in the first place 

Night confession

Gahhh...had the scariest dream last night. A guy attempt to jump down from the building in front of me. I tried to shout at him but I can't seem to ring a single sound. He then found the courage to jump the third time. Dang it was sooooo sooooo scary because I can even hear the thumpppp!! sound....like wtf...

I always had nightmares; crocodile, running, river, sea, ghost, mother nature, you name it....rofl. Should probably go figured out the meaning behind my dreams, heh.

Anyway, life was okay I guess....errr...not really, haha. 

It is this time I remember the things I cannot speak of even in this space, because the desire to elicit a response and the degree of privacy I accord to everybody just aren't miscible. 

sorry..

But every now and then I try to tell myself that God must had his reason for all these..

I just have to continue believing I guess.

take care people

Love,

JessieJess