A little bit more

Warning: This post will be quite boring without pictures and it's a boring topic. You might want to just skip this post out.


Been attacked by this weird sickness again. I'm really frustrated till I decided to blog about it because I don't think in this universe there are a lot of people suffered from this typical sickness. It had followed me probably since I'm in std6 I couldn't remember. 


Initially I thought that it has got to do with my eye so I wear a specs, but nothing helps. I even consulted an eye specialist doctor and he said that nothing is wrong with my eyes and he don't even know what sickness I'm facing, until when I start to googled them out of frustration last year. How pathetic I actually diagnose my sickness from google instead of a doctor. lol. It's called aura migraine/ocular migraine, I guess.


How lucky some who have this sickness did not find any pain. Mine did. It actually starts with a zigzag lines, from small till big and then completely out from the vision and this normally took about 20-30minutes. I couldn't see my visions properly in places covered with the zigzag line, which explains why I'm so skeptical in driving. I explained this to my eye specialist doctor but he couldn't understand so I thought you guys won't too. But I googled and found this. http://www.allaboutvision.com/conditions/ocular-migraine.htm Click on the link and scroll down to the picture with the green field and tree. That explains everything I'm facing. I'm super happy the one created that picture understand my situation.


After the zigzag lines is gone, mine however followed by super pain one side migraine( it could be left or right), from the brain down to the neck. I experience chill, nausea and I keep feel like vomiting. The pain usually last for a day. To be honest, I get used to it but everytime when I get it, I feel super frustrated especially when I have important things going on, because I knew I have to call it a day. 


I usually get attack when the weather is too hot, when I'm too hungry, when I'm too tired or when I watch something too glaring. This explains why my handphone and laptop are always set to the darkest mode. Honestly, although my mum was quite skeptical the other time when we went for the fortune-telling, but I found that what she says about me is very true. She actually told me I had a very serious brain and neck sickness and I had problems with needles ( that's another part of my major sickness though lol) I didn't wanna judge anything here but I guess I'm still quite rational on the money she asked me to pay. lol. 


I don't think there's a cure for this. And I'm not sure whether when will this go away, but I think I'll just accept my fate, eh.I always tell myself to bare with it, to bare with it. God must have his own reason for all these. But right here right now, I just wish that this pain will go away, soon.