啊杰斯今晚非你莫属

It's probably because I lost sight of why I was writing down my personal, innermost thoughts on a public medium for everyone to see as it seems to me that when we're young and fueled by zealous verve and impulsive youthfulness we need to get everything out there and to let the world know exactly how we feel. Then as we get older ( I am, for all intents and purposes, an adult now. I suppose.) we cherish our privacy more, value quiet contemplation and perhaps begin to understand that maturity means being able to bottle up unnecessary and puerile emotions and to only sweat the important stuff.

But little things affect us because little things afflict us.

It occurs to me that I have got to stop getting so emotionally attached to things. It would be so much easier if I could just watch the things (or people) I love disappear from my life, accept it, and just move on without so much as a nostalgic glance back.

Isn't it ironic that it's the days when I do nothing at all that are the most emotionally charged?

Jesus Christ

Is this worthwhile?

It's been awhile. It feels really alive when I started to write. I cannot believe what I've lost. I cannot believe how I betray faith and acceptance. People just aren't the same anymore as time goes by. I cannot see my future, eventually become greedy and I'm afraid by the thinking of mine. I need more. More than just a mere title. Sometimes I wish there will be a twist in life that could held free of everything. But everything seems so little and nothing. 

I couldnt communicate well because we spoke in a different world. We have the same blood flowing but the way education shape us tears us so far apart. Argument is always on trigger but thanks to yours truly high maintanance of EQ level, I let it go. 

To me personally, I hope I could grow in a better environment. Not like this being a shadow that doesn't belongs to me. 

I don't know which irritates me more, you or me? 

Bahhhhh

I find myself hating to work on Saturdays already. Super demotivated

The ego still knocks on my head

Don't try. If you're good, people will noticed. If you're meant to be noticed, you will be noticed. No point trying. 

想起那一个夏天

It's night like this makes life looking real dull and still dull. Leading a really nasty life but I sucked it up and kept it safe with me because I'm ego like that. Also, I wanted to prove people wrong and made believe it's all me. Gahh.. I don't think there's a cure for introvert people. #facepalm

Life is always not easy, didn't want to say hard because it's a really strong word. Maybe someday I will have my lessons learn, but for now, I still am really much struggling to get thru the pain and the hardship. Guess it's really hard to find something you love when so many obstacles stood in front of you..And I don't think I'll understand life. Goodnight peeps