Beginning of a breakdown

One second I could be really positive to myself and then when night creeps out, I have different thoughts all over again. Forgot what I wanted to say already, but I realised my frequency in blogging is probably related to my stress level. 

It's funny how once you have no responsibilities, life is actually worth living again.

But for now,

Stop the clocks and shut the window, 

There's no life here anymore. 

Listen, don't be a coward

I really like to read my horoscope in igoogle because it's quite very accurate at times 

You are in an awkward position today because you're heading into a serious phase, yet you're not quite ready to settle down. You would prefer to enjoy the lighter moments while you still can, but avoiding your work now makes it harder to partake in the fun later on. Luckily, you understand how to balance the extremes. Just remember that remaining responsible is the key to unlocking the gates to the playground.

Guess I need to step out from this misery to be able to unlock my playground's gate,eh 

But I'm ficked minded shit, so I couldn't ensure what's my thought next

boo

:/ 

Valentines for you

Well I guess this is just one of those days where I feel like holing up in my blanket and pretending I don't exist

lol

But anyway, this month of love I got really inspired by my good adorable cousin. It's been years ever since I saw her and she recently just came back from Singapore with her boyfie or should I say soon-to-be-hubby. Although they both are totally from different race, but it's love who brings them this close together. I'm really really proud of them :)

To me, I think love needs lots of courage, forgiveness, patience, understanding and trust to built great love together.

For now I don't think I 've met any of those qualifications just yet.

The scariest thing isn't not knowing, it is the knowledge that the truth will change everything

Wrapping up the burden and carrying it on.

Happy Valentine's Day 

Love,

Jess

How to be good

Went to aunt's house recently where she help to babysit this mischievous baby Rachel. She's sooo pretty and her eyelashes is everyone's dream. lol. Amazingly, she could remember my name now although I only met her thrice. lol

 she's just like a lollipop :)

 :)

 she climb to me when she saw me drinking the Soyrich and sapu all lol

posing with her Christmas hat :)

her sleeping time :)

And of course I took advantage and camwhore with her super large Barney. 
bwahahhaha

On a lighter note, read my horoscope for today which sounded like this:

Although you've experienced many unusual things lately, your partner or a friend might do something today that's totally unexpected. Ironically, you may secretly wish that you were the one daring enough to break the rules and behave outrageously

lol-ed myself out

okay goodnight world 

<3

Jeslyn 

I wonder when will the fountain will stop its water?

Perhaps all the things just happen together at the same time,

And it's hard for me to cope. 

The beginning is always the hardest,

I've started to take the first step,

It's now the matter of fact whether someone out there will allow this step to be solidly touch on the ground.

You no longer wish to play soldiers, and I understand it. 

原來我也不能抵抗　沮喪

25/01/2012- Wednesday. Time: 11.40pm- Checked

It's been a week

Everywhere seems to have your footsteps around

The escalator,

The fun fair centre,

The bench,

The popcorn counter,

The ticket receiver place,

The StarWars poster,

Your laughter and your voice still rings so loudly clear...

So Mister Potato, you better be safe there or I'll eat you up cz you didn't even report in safe to me