I need some inspiration

WORDS!!!! Please inspire me!!

I don't know what to write for my report and I'm half dead now

Rant! rant! rant! 

Obviously blogging is way better than doing report

Although its the same language, but totally different feeling and words of communicating.

Lol

K.O-ed 

*runs*

Language and meaning

I wish this hurt would ease. Time's supposedly a great healer, but goddamn, it takes its own sweet time. It's this feeling of something is missing, an emptiness that nothing can fill. All the while the pain is there, buried beneath the layers and layers of the day's events and my own obstinate resolve. I refuse to feel it, for what good can come from embracing it and wallowing in all the nuances of this hurt? But mature thoughts count for spit in the face of life. 

We flirt with happiness and feel the fleeting touch but all we are is a broken people desperate and hungry for happiness but eternally condemned to misery.

I don't think this post does any justice to a life that's been faded away but-not for the first time- words fail me and I think I'm just going to leave it at that

Happy Birthday April babies

Its a good friday

Happy Easter :) 

I'm not sure whether you guys realize, but it will always rain at night on this day or the day before. I'm not even sure why.

Morning was church and noon was meeting the superstar.

Why would I say so?

See, I could only take her picture from far far apart.

This is definitely not your selena gomez nor justin bieber.lol

Got some gifts from her to us. 

It's so sweet of her because apparently she went for an audit, not a trip

lol

thanks dear

well

That's all for today 

Until next time

*Muahh*

Midnight

Masking masking I love doing mask

Another outing tomorrow with the girls *muah*

Haha. Nowadays, I think this blog must be the must-have-to-go-place before sleep.lol

Stay tuned for pictures of outing tomorrow (if any) 

:)

who, if I cried, would hear me among the angelic orders?

Fly me to Polaris, a movie which makes me ponders whether there is really any possibilities such thing will ever happen in life. But I always always always ended up looking like some kind of aliens with swollen eyes after watching this movie.lol. I like Richie Ren!!


Don't worry, today's post weren't be that sad although the title may sound otherwise, but hey, its raining.Raining is what? Its my day :) Seriously I love rainy days really much, more that you can ever imagine. Although I'm afraid of cold but I really enjoyed the absent of Mr Sun. I'm not even kidding. 


Training is over, which marked me as a 80percent graduated students. Final report is the next one to be done.  But more to holidays first :P

Running out of goodbyes

Hello world, 

Its me again

And yes, I'm still not over with this armagedon thingy I'm going through. I'm better off explaining in form of words, I don't know. 

I'm such a self fulfilling prophecy kind of person. If I get labeled, I find myself acting up to it, and then people go harh I know you inside out! And fell all complacent about themselves. I think there isn't any inside to know. I get so much grief for trying to put anything in. 

Today, we walked by. Familiarity is something so shuddery. There isn't any changes to this place, but it has become very desolated. 

Maybe I'm so far apart from God that I started to feel this way. Please give me strength to be strong. For some reason it feels like another chapter has closed, the doors are firmly locked. We've reached an impasse. I've reached...wherever the end of the line is, and I don't know if there's a future waiting.

Let's runaway

冰涼的​​夜裡讓眼淚溫熱我

There is something about me which I hate, pride. I'm not sure whether its a good thing but its definitely one of the factor that pulls me here. Everytime I drink to banish these regrets, I just ended up with a whole clutch more. Somehow my means of forgetting these sad thoughts and being happy just makes me end up feeling even more horrible and worst, embarassed and ashamed. I just can't find it within myself to care.

Ultimately, what matters is what you do nao and right nao all I can think about is the past and the future and I'm fucking stuck in some kind of no man's land, some vicious cycle, and going nowhere fast.

I wonder how old you've got to become before you hit that level of maturity that stops completely this roaring longing to be someone you really want.


Irony aside, I don't think it's supposed to work like this, is it?


Sorry to all of you to have to read this. Maybe that time of month is coming eh?

And yes, its going to stay dark forever

Life inside hasn't been physically or mentally tough as I imagine it to be. I've pushed myself to places I have never been, and places I have, and come out of it better. I had struggled along, been angry and disappointed, experienced every negative emotion possible. But I've never yearned for any of the old comforts I used to have, and I've not missed any of them enough to actually feel it.


But every day, every moment, I miss you. And every moment looking at you makes me stronger, because it is one moment closer to being by your side again. Shamely enough, here's the thing about surrender, once you do it, you actually give in and you forget why you were even fighting in the very first place.


Today the trees were too green, the sun was too warm, and the rain didn't last for long enough. The days aren't so much passing me by as they are slowly cooling around my neck.


I guess solitude is a killer to me, but I started to enjoyed this dark side of me.

Bites and bacon

Look what I recently found in my wardrobe.

Haha. Omg. All the memories just rushing in into my mind. I could remember every details so vividly, and of course, not forgetting the one where I was doing collection of funds by selling food in the campus.Grrr~~

The most unforgettable one? The day before and the last day of the event.lol. Irene, is you are reading this, you know exactly what I mean eh.*our dirty little secret* lol

Just trying to update here for a bit before I went missing again lol.Yess!! My weekend is gonna be filled with activities and I can't wait. Hectic work is a killer :P

Until next time