Pathethic

I do sometimes have my own flaws 

as I'm only a human.

I'm not angry, not mad, nor aggravated.

Just feels dissapointed at myself at times.

There are many minor but important things that I've skipped looking upon to,

And I feel terribly bad inside out.

I don't remember I used to be like this when I was younger


-no comments, thanks for respecting-

What good is an inflated sense of self?

Aww..raining :) My windows are widely open nao I feel like I'm in Genting, super cold and windy. And yay Christmas is coming. All the shopping centres are full with Christmas decorations and Christmas songs nao. Ohh and you know what, I'm grown to watch Home Alone every Christmas. Whenever I watch this movie I feel so nostalgic. But it doesn't really shown on TV anymore, isn't it? 

 Felt so joy with holidays like this, but not as joy as I would had hoped as there's lots of SALES coming up in this month but yours truly is broke till death :/ Imma gonna feed on grass for the nxt one month till Christmas*emo*

Watched Breaking Dawn yesterday and Edward is still soo soo captivating. Super nice movie I'm gonna watch for a couple of times more I don't care.nyahnyah. I know of alot people who love Jacob but bleh I still like Edward as always haha. 

One month till Christmas and then to the next year. Good times do fly huh. 

I love this picture effect I wanna put as a profile picture nao.lol.Kays my post is random shit I guess I'll just stop here. Until next time. 

Something to think about

Me: *jokingly ask* Can I finish up all the soups later?

Mom : Aiyahh can leave one bowl for me, I hvnt drink it.

Me: Eeee not enough to drink*laughs*

Mom: Okay no need keep for me, you finish it up lahh

Me: O.o

You see, I'm born in family like this. In fact, I think most of the mother/parents in this world sacrifices for their child. They always think the best or put their child's interest first and didn't matter bout their own ones. I guess this is called as unlimited parents love?  


I'm really lucky that I'm given a family like this. They are not the perfect ones, but the flaws are definitely something incredible that you learn to love as you grow. I know I owe them way too too much, which I don't think I'll be able to repay them bck in this life, EVER. boo.. I don't want to do things that impress others, I just want to do things that I love but I guess that's the main reason I'm still struggling much here..triple sigh. 


Well maybe it's thanksgiving's day and that's why I'm having all this guilt feeling started to zoom in into my brain. Bahhh I'm drinking to banish these regrets out but good Lord :/ 

Hey Jude, don't let me down

Still finding myself awake at this hour.

Green tea is to be blame.grrr. But I could still wake late so not a problem at all actually. lol.

Lately I've been experiencing difficulties in breathing and aching from the heart. 

sigh. Kept feeling that the sick bug doesn't goes away. 

Frustrated *butchered bug*

I miss that feeling of being free. Life just doesn't grant you such ephemeral illusions anymore

Happy S.U.N.D.A.Y

Cloudy weather= a happy ME!!!

It's Sunday and I don't remembered I had a Monday blue

Cheers people :)

Oh, I've updated my birthday post. If you haven't read it already, here you go

http://playground-simplicity.blogspot.com/2011/10/i-will-post-something-here-later-p.html?showComment=1321761425763#c3656617776205191311

We interfere too much

So I am really lemming for a camera. Not that my handphone camera can't be used, but I like how camera could do the trick and photos are still so perfect when being transferred to the computer. Mine? Le sigh, I don't even wanna talk about it. 

On a random note, become bridesmaid for two weddings for the past two weeks. Really really tiring but fun. lol. I must say I witnessed lots of warmth love through out the weddings. The time when the bridegroom is allowed to enter the room *big wet eyes* wtf hahahahaha

Sometimes I just wish that I could turned back the time. Perhaps I'll change my own mind and make it alright. But 4years? Something imposible. Then I'll just ask for Tom Cruise then bwahahaha ok wtf ignore me.. lol

I'm sooo wanna watch Breaking Dawn!!! I don't care if I have to go watch alone but I must watch this!! hahaha okay I don't really have spine here so, Ms. Pang, How,Low, Yoong or Ting...Jom larrr!!!!!! 

Although if I could, I didn't know where to find for you anymore :/

Aww I never get to watch Roy today as it's raining. Sad face. Anyway, do you realise I'm always here recently? It's like almost every night lol. Must be like a blog bug attack or something. haha perhaps there's too many things to utter, but too limited words to describe, so be it. 

Miss Fuji mountain really really much all of a sudden.bwahahaha If I bring out a little liquid courage, perhaps the ending will not be like this. But oh well, we are born different and that's the fact I need to learn. Boo.

I don't think I can write as chunks and chunks of words are being backspaced deliberately. Midnight rain is really something I couldn't messed with , but I love the challenge :/ 

Google Introvert

Been in this state two hours ago. No makeup,lights off, relaxing on the bed, online, and most importantly, hearing Mine Mine by Jay. It's been in my repeat track ever since I got it. haha


Back from the wedding. My cousin is super pretty more than you can ever imagine. Super proud of her and her hubby.Yay.. And I think I've been awake for the past 36hrs now and maybe that's why weird thoughts starting to zoom in to my head and all.




Tower Heist, Tower Heist I wanna watch :/ Aihh life is so saddening. I think I will be like Ms How to go watch alone if this continues ( threatening Ms How to watch with me >_<)Gee I never would have imagine that. Also, I WANT TO WATCH BREAKING DAWN!!!! bwahahaha I'm soo excited. I still remembered that I watched Twilight for four times in cinema. lol freaking crazy. But Christmas & holiday season is near and I bet there's plenty of great movies in the cinemaaaaaaa~~~ Ohhh my friendssss


誰該堅強起來　月亮還是太陽

The day

Yay Tomorrow will be the wedding!

I've been running errands today to pick up stuff to make fun of the bridegroom's gang

Really lenient we are :D

Also, I bought my dress last minute*claps*

Idk, I'm really picky about clothes, accessories and makeup

LOL

Okay now gonna go get some sleep before I look like a panda tmr

tata

Everything's easier when we're happy

Do I really look that proud in person? I mean, really, I've been explaining very much often every now and then.lol. I don't really speak face to face with people that I'm not that familiar with because I really have limited topic lol wth I know right, but that's the sad fact :/ 

Plus, I'm really a shy person bwahahaha okay stop laughing and coughing Ms Low, it may sound otherwise once you were very close to me. Idk, I don't initiate to talk face2face to strangers which I think I will probably die if I'm being thrown to other country alone lol. If you are a Libra-ian like me, you'll know how bad this attitude goes. It really takes time for me to trust somebody and if you gain the trust, it'll be like a forever pass entrance wtf I sound so wrong here dayumn.

I'm not complaining, because it's not their fault anyway, but whenever people come telling me I'm really proud and quiet, all I could react was just like give the what the heck face O.o  Haha which sounds really interesting sometimes because that's the part people see on me first. Oh wait, maybe that's the main reason why I don't have many friends wtf my life is so pathethic. Haha

On a random note, I still haven't got a dress for the wedding.It's like 3days more? Omg I'm so freaking last minute but who cares lar I'm not the main attraction here lol but I wanna look good in pictures bwahaha  I'm so fickle minded can die.

King Kong 

Hong Kong

Ping Pong

I'm really in love with Jay Chou I'm surprise. well okay, not that surprise as it's been 10 good years,  but I'm proud to own his laptop while listening to this song.Kept repeating it since morning. Satisfaction :D

Until next time :)

Cause baby you are mine mine

Alright, two of my besties had started working already. Feels so sad nao because nobody is there to watch movie with me, go shopping with me, go makan with me or whatsoever O.o 


Maybe by this I could make an effort to work too? wtf bleh..But I don't care lar December is Christmas and January is Chinese New Year. Tell me how to find work with the lovely holiday season. Besides, I'm not ready to become anyone yet so I'll just chill for aliitle bit. 


But really, please ask me out, please ask me out because thinking of being alone at home really makes me feel so threatened and sad nao I wanna cry.haha wtf. I just had Mr Jay's song and Mr Rain to entertain me all day and that's why you see my mood so good till can fly up to the sky but too fat can't fly just can stay on the land thanks to gravity haha.


Okay I shall probably shut my mouth now and entertain you with my old nice pictures today so don't say I never warn you har, but I like myself so I don't care lar  you have to see it no matter what. Haha wtf I'm so dominant   

I miss my fringe soo much I swear to God I will not let any hairstylist to cut my hair ever again. If you are wondering. I always cut my own hair. I'm not a licensed professional hair styler or whatsoever, but I just cut my hair based on how I like them to be but this time around I didn't know I've been attacked by what sun stroke disease I decided to let her to chop my fringe. I've told her jz a little will do but in the end, still dissapointment. grrrrr


Hair long hair long hair faster faster long..Okay time to sleep nao.. I've a backache I could hardly bend or sit for long time nao, I'm so old like that. Okay bai.


Current song: Jay- Mine Mine ( he's just like my personal brand of heroin.wtf)